Post-traumatic Stress Monday

It's funny (well, technically NOT funny) how our mood can do a complete 360 in a couple of seconds
-- triggered by an event, a person, a snicker, a smile, a joke,
the wrong words, the right words, the lack of words, or anything for that matter...

It's not fair to feel so great one moment and feel like sh*** (forgive the language, seemed appropriate) the next.
But its part of human nature -- we are a complex being filled with all kinds of neurotransmitters, synapses,
hormones (especially us women), immunoglobulins, heck, even our adipose tissue affect our AFFECT.
So it's normal, completely normal not to be okay all the time.

At first I didnt want my blog to reflect any negativity -- i wanted to keep it upbeat and happy so that future joanie can read old entries and continue to smile, but i realized, negativity is part of life. It's seeing beyond the negativity, knowing that you'll be able to pick yourself back up again that matters. and it doesn't hurt to be reminded every now and then that there are great souls all around you that will counter the heck out of those excessive cortisol levels (associated with depression).

So in times like these,
when I feel like everything I do is limited to "frustrated" status,
when my limitations are made more apparent to me,
when the worlds seems a lil meaner,
and I know I'm down for the punch so it isn't the time for rational thinking.
I look around for my serotonin therapy
-- in the form of friends, hugs, giggles, art, color, whatever induces a smile
-- or sleep. just sleep.