I write this entry as I wait for my mail to attach submissions as I race after deadlines.
It's the only time I have left -- but I had to make use of it to share this little humdrum realization:
"di tumitigil and mundo"
As med students, we often lose ourselves in our little bubble of anatomy, physiology, pathology, pharmacology, etc. We are almost always inside the classroom studying, or in a coffee shop studying, or at home studying. I always hear that in movies, in series, in other people's lives -- but I never thought it would happen to me. I used to take pride in being able to balance life seamlessly.
But this week I found myself unable to talk to three of my bestest friends who live far far away when we were supposed to be updating each other about our lives, telling my parents they needn't come to Manila on my birthday because it falls on the weekend before pulmo exams (my hardest module last year), unable to sleep enough to recover from a sore throat which has now progressed to full-on flu, unable to reach out and be there for friends who are going through worse right now from different sides and different perspectives. I feel like I've chosen school over family, friends and my health.
I'm lucky because Im gifted with the most amazing, supportive and understanding family and friends, but I had to take this opportunity to pause and remind myself -- and all other busy people out there (wether in med or not) -- that life goes on. It doesn't stop for anyone or anything -- so be grounded in your priorities and know who you are, so that you don't wake up one day realizing while you were busy doing something else, life had passed you by. There will be consequences, forks in your path to wherever you are going, where you have to give up one for the other, that is where such priorities and self-reflection is needed for you to make the right decision for yourself.
My attachment is about to finish. My "break" is almost up.
Let me end with this. Thank you. For reminding me that there is always more to life.
It's the only time I have left -- but I had to make use of it to share this little humdrum realization:
"di tumitigil and mundo"
As med students, we often lose ourselves in our little bubble of anatomy, physiology, pathology, pharmacology, etc. We are almost always inside the classroom studying, or in a coffee shop studying, or at home studying. I always hear that in movies, in series, in other people's lives -- but I never thought it would happen to me. I used to take pride in being able to balance life seamlessly.
But this week I found myself unable to talk to three of my bestest friends who live far far away when we were supposed to be updating each other about our lives, telling my parents they needn't come to Manila on my birthday because it falls on the weekend before pulmo exams (my hardest module last year), unable to sleep enough to recover from a sore throat which has now progressed to full-on flu, unable to reach out and be there for friends who are going through worse right now from different sides and different perspectives. I feel like I've chosen school over family, friends and my health.
I'm lucky because Im gifted with the most amazing, supportive and understanding family and friends, but I had to take this opportunity to pause and remind myself -- and all other busy people out there (wether in med or not) -- that life goes on. It doesn't stop for anyone or anything -- so be grounded in your priorities and know who you are, so that you don't wake up one day realizing while you were busy doing something else, life had passed you by. There will be consequences, forks in your path to wherever you are going, where you have to give up one for the other, that is where such priorities and self-reflection is needed for you to make the right decision for yourself.
My attachment is about to finish. My "break" is almost up.
Let me end with this. Thank you. For reminding me that there is always more to life.
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